Missing.

I guess today is my catch up day for my blog. Maybe I'll do a little better, (Probably not.) But I've had a lot on my mind in these past couple weeks. I'm leaving to school in 2 weeks, Christmas is here, but no family is. 

It's so weird to me. I've always had all of my family here for Christmas, so it doesn't really feel like Christmas to me. My family is spread out all over now and I guess it's just hitting me now that I probably won't see them for possibly a long time. I just feels so empty knowing that my family's not here at a time where family's are supposed to be together. I'm going to miss all the craziness that comes with my family. Kids running around screaming, brothers and sisters speaking louder and louder so they can be heard from across the room, and the biggest thing for me, Christmas Eve. I've always enjoyed doing the Christmas program with my Nathan. We'd always do something together. He'd usually play, and I'd sing. 

But I guess all of this loneliness is part of growing up. People grow up, get married, and then have family's of their own. Sometimes I wish we could stay young forever and keep our family together, but then again, I couldn't imagine my life without all of my nieces and nephews (one I have yet to meet) and my amazing in-laws.  For all of you that read this, I miss you and love you all, hopefully I'll see you next year!